Log in

~Now, who'd have thought someone like you could love me?...

Monday, January 30, 2006

8:37PM - haha that's my bitch!!


School has started looking up, since my mom got on my ass about it! I have a steady 1.97 GPA- yeah, thumbs down for that one. I'm also in danger of failing World Lit- Ms. DiCamillo; WHAT A BITCH!! haha, Drama was my highest grade and that was a 93- because I'm awesome.
"Lovers and madmen have such seething brains, such shaping fantasies. That apprehend more than cool reason ever comprehends. The lunatic, the lover, and the poet are of imagination all compact.
One sees more devils than the vast hell could hold- that is the madman. The lover, all as frantic, see's Helen's beauty in a brow of Egypt. The poet's eye, in fine frenzy rolling, doth glance from heaven to earth, from earth to heaven, and as imagination bodies forth the forms of things unknown the poet's pen turns them to shapes and gives to airy nothing a local habitation and a name.
Such tricks hath strong imagination..................."
lol i forget the rest!!!! but i had to memorize that as my monologue, and i kicked ass, BITCH!!! but yeah, that's the deal with school right now....

Me and Richie: absolutely perfect. Could not be better! We are going through some tough times with school and some UH-OH's that happened along the way, but we are getting thru them together. He is making my senior year so memorable!!

The other night i went on a triple date with: Dave <3 Prianka, Eric <3 Molly, and my Richie!! We saw Underworld....even tho i was a little confused i think it was a really good movie...i was squeezing richie's arm the whole time cuz it's a little suspensful, but not too bad. dave had to explain some shit to me after the movie, though! and there was a really hot vampire/werewolf dude in it...and he died and came back to life!!! hrm....richie is going to see hostile on friday which i wont be there cuz i have to work...and then saturday me stanley and court are going to dinner at steak and ale while richie is working :( our schedules never fuckin work out the way we want them too!!!! But i dunno, i guess i'll talk to him about in like an hour or so.....

so, other than that...i got accepted to deltech, now all i have to do is get crap ready for the nursing program....like go to the information sessions and shit like that! i dunno, somebody told me yesterday that there is a waiting list for that shit, which would really piss me off!!! oh well, me and richie will be going to school together for 2 years which makes me happy, but i'm REALLLLY trying to move out of my house. I know it will be so much easier living at home because my parents would still be paying a majority of my bills, but if they make me still live with these gay rules i'm going to jump off the God damn roof. It's getting better, though, I must admit. Especially with me and mi madre regaining the relationship we had before...like the best friend relationship....she knows pretty much everything that's going on in my life right now: my school life, my work life, me and richie....yeah...EVERYTHING for the most part!

steak and ale is awesome....i love EVERYBODY there, like, i honestly don't think that there is a single person i don't like there! Me and catie are getting really close, and I don't mind...normally i dont like getting close to or trusting girls my age or anywhere close to my age just because they are all just a bunch of drama-filled, backstabbing, shittalking, fake bitches lol, but i honestly have not heard catie talk bad about anyone except like her ex boyfriends lol!!! and we just have a friendship chemistry hehe!! but yeah she's awesome...and then theres david, reds, and chip to make it that much better for us....hostess with the mostest!!!! hehe <3333

well, i think that's all for now cuz my bladder is going to explode!!! hehe

<3 Helen Marie <3

ps- i started looking for stuff (dresses, limos, etc) for prom!!! yay!!
pss- i think i found a house for senior week 2006!! SCORE!!!
ppss- somebody told me that you were uhhh....that you were ummm...a homosexual!! lmao <3 richie and ryann!!! <3

Current mood: nerdy- only cuz i have to be!!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

12:54AM - Christmas lists

*Richie: A playstation 2- games and extra controller to go with it
*Little Brothers: $15 and a card.....hehe what kid doesn't want cash?
*Mom: A $25 gift card to Steak and Ale...plus I owe her a mug
*Dad: One of those cheesy "Dads" books from Hallmark
*Big bro: Candles for his house!

*Richie: the green "Italia" sweatsuit that I wanted, the black sparkly sweater that I wanted, the white sparkly sweater I wanted, a whole bag of Bath and Body Works 'Winter Candy Apple' scented stuff, and a BEAUUUUUTIFUL butterfly necklace!
*Mommy and Daddy: my car, my room, work clothes, and two GORGEOUS suede and velvet jackets....mommy's got good taste
*Lil bros: Bob Marley CD and bottle of 'Winter Candy Apple' lotion...score! I'm NEVER going to smell bad lol!
*Big Bro: CD holder that i needed badly for my car and a 1 hour pedicure at bliss spa!!
*Granny: new jacket that i needed DESPERATELY (cuz i keep stealing richie's), money, lotions, and other stuff that i'm too tired to think of right now....

so yeah...like i said i got some other cute little things....including a bracelet that has a bead that represents all the different types of cancer and then has a bead that says 'hope'....it's really cool....but yeah....

things have been looking up lately....i dug myself into a deep fucking hole that i'm just starting to get myself out of....i work at steak and ale now....as a hostess (<3 caitie, richie, dave <3)....and i seriously just had the best Christmas ever....<3 RICHIE <3.....but i'm really glad with the way things are looking right now....i would right more but i'm reallly tired and you can tell by how many........of those i'm putting in here....hehe love you guys

Current mood: <3 SOOoooOOO deep in love <3

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

9:40PM - surveys that i did cuz i was bored, and then maybe i'll update!

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue? Tongue ;)
2) be serious or be funny? Funny!
3) drink whole or skim milk? whole!

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated? Depends on the situation

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or angels? Flowers?
6) grey or gray? gray
7) color or black-and-white photos? Black and white hands down
8) lust or love? love
9) sunrise or sunset? sunset
10) M&Ms or Skittles? Depends on if I want something fruity or chocolatey
11) rap or rock? Eh…rock, but I listen to both
12) staying up late or waking up early? staying up late
13) TV or radio? radio
15) eating apples or oranges? If clementines count as oranges, then oranges

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush?: possibly… : p
17) Who is it? Eric, marcus, shaun….lmao jk <3Richie<3

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold? I’m a sissy when I’m cold, but I’m bitchier when I’m hot…?
19) tall or short members of the opposite sex? Taller than me, which is very rare
20) sun or moon? moon
21) emeralds or rubies? rubies
22) left or right? right
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend
24) sun or rain? i love the rain, especially when it’s sunny and raining…so both lol
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate
7) green beans or carrots? Green beans
28) ...low fat or fat free? Low fat

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? I honestly don’t know
30) Kids or no kids? kids
31) Cat or dog? dog
32) Half empty or half full? half full
33) Mustard or ketchup? ketchup
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? hard cover
35) Newspaper or magazine? magazine
36) Sandals or sneakers? sneakers...they are SOOO much sexier… I didn’t wear flip flops once this summer
37) Wonder or amazement? amazement
38) Red ...car or white ...car? red
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? happy and poor
40) Singing or dancing? I love singing, but dancing with Richard is the best feeling in the world…
41) Hugging or kissing? Depends on how horny I am
42) Corduroy or plain? Plain
43) Happy or sad? Happy! DUH!
45) Blondes, brunettes? Blondes hehe they are way funnier

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
What time is it? 10:23 PM
Nicknames: hell raiser, helanor, HELMOR
Names and ages of siblings? Danny- 21, Michael- 14, Cullen- 12
Pets? 1 doggie
Height? 5'10 and 1/2
Eye color? Pretty blue

Hair color? Blonde/brunette/red
Piercing(s)? my ears

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . .*
Where do you want to live? Maine or Canada with my <3 Richie <3
How many kids do you want? Hehe, well according to drunk richie “3 kids- 2 boys and one girl…” lmao <3
What kind of job do you want? DREAM: model/singer, GOAL: Pediatrician, SETTLE FOR: nurse
Do you want to get married? DUH!

* . . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . . *
2 doors or 4 (on a car)? Depends…are you trying to look hot or are you trying to figure out how many people your trying to fit in your car?
Coffee or ice cream? ice cream
Shampoo or conditioner? conditioner
Bridges or tunnels? bridges
One pillow or two? 2

* . . . F A V O R I T E S . . . *
Salad dressing? Italian/ranch
Color of socks? white
Food? Fried chicken…
Color? orange
Non-alcoholic drink? Apple juice  lol yeah I know I’m a 3 year old

* . . . R A N D O M . . . *
1 MINUTE AGO: I was on the phone with richie telling him that he coulnd’t get off the phone
1 DAY AGO: I was looking hot going to my cousin’s black and white party
1 WEEK AGO: I was probably out pat curfew and my parents were cussing me out…something along those lines lol
1 YEAR AGO: I didn’t know the love of my life…<3
I HURT: mike desmond
I LOVE: Richard Joseph with all my heart…
I HATE: stupid people at my school and at my work…and just stupid people in general
I HOPE: me and richie are together as long as he says we are going to be
I FEEL: so amazingly happy with my life right now
I LISTEN: to Christmas music right now!
I DRIVE: a 95 Lexus ES300 BITCHES!
I MISS: talking on the phone with Richie…because he made me get off b/c he’s going to sleep and I wanted to talk on the phone late tonight 
I LEARNED: that you can fall in love at a young age and mean it!
I KNOW: that school is gonna suck tomorrow and I think I have to work which will make the day suck in general
I WANT: to be in Richie’s arms falling asleep right now!
I NEED: money!
Current Clothes: work clothes and my fishnets on underneath because richie and I are FREEKS
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: carrie underwood! She’s so fucking amazing!
Current Taste: novacaine YUM!
Current ...Hair: up for once this week, with my little bang down in the front lol
Current Annoyance: my dog keeps walking in and out of the room!
Current Smell: richie’s hoodie <3
Current thing I should be doing: sleeping probably
Current Desktop Picture: a stupid XBOX 360 thing that my bro put on there
Current Favorite Show: that 70’s show
Current Book: If Cosmo counts as a book lol
Current Movie In DVD: Grind!
Current Refreshment: orange juice with ice….yay!

Opposite Sex
||1|| Guitar or Drum Player – who the fuck is my boyfriend again?! Lol the sickest guitarist in DE!
||2|| Skater or Surfer – eh…if I had to choose…surfer I guess
||3|| Brown or Blue Eyes – well it depends on if it’s a pretty blue or not, but I’ve decided that shaun, michael, and richie all have the prettiest eyes I have EVER seen…so brown lol
||4|| Blonde or Brunette – brunette, hands down
||5|| Brains or Looks (Be honest!) – I wont go out with a dumb ass….wait…lol uh…brains, but looks are nice too!

Food -
||6|| Cheeseburger or Hotdog – cheeseburger!!!!
||7|| Pie or Cake – cake- as long as it’s chocolate
||8|| Apple or Banana – apple
||9|| Coke or Pepsi – uh…coke cuz I like the color red?
||10|| Chicken or Beef – depends on my mood…beef?
||11|| Oreos or Chips Ahoy – OREOS!!!
||12|| Pancakes or Waffles – waffles!
||13|| Chocolate or Vanilla – Chocolate maniac right here!
||14|| Strawberry or Cherry – strawberry!
||15|| Watermelon or Cantaloupe – cantaloupe!
||16|| Potato or Macaroni Salad – Potato- as long as it’s my mom-mom’s
||17|| Wheat or White – white!
||18|| Tic Tacs or Altoids – tic tacs!
||19|| Sausage or Bacon - bacon!
||20|| Sour Cream and Chives or BBQ – considering I gagged at the first one….BBQ!

Sports -
||26|| Baseball or Football – football…cuz of richie I guess?
||27|| Swim or Track – swim- I could never do track
||28|| Tennis or Golf – tennis!
||29|| Skiing or Sledding – sledding, hands down!
||30|| Bicycling or Jogging – bicycling

Stores/Restaurants -
||31|| McDonalds or Burger King – Good old Mickey D’s!
||32|| JC Penny's or Sears – JC Penney’s!
||33|| Walmart or Target – Target- but only if you say it like a french person hehehe
||34|| Trophy's or TGI Fridays – TGI Friday’s <3 homecoming!
||35|| Albertson's or Vons – hmm well I know someone named Von…so…Von’s!

||36|| Pants or Shorts – shorts- even tho I never wear them hehe..i like my legs!
||36|| Zip-Up or Pull-Over Sweatshirt - pull-over…zip ups are like a tease and very annoying!
||37|| Dresses or Skirts – awww I like dresses, but I like mini skirts tooo!
||38|| Mittens or Gloves – who the FUCK wears mittens?
||40|| Ball cap or Beanie – ball cap…I think beanies make people’s heads look like penises

Names -
||41|| Bob or Bill – Bob- that’s my dad!
||42|| Jessica or Jennifer - Jessica
||43|| Aaron or Erin – Aaron for a boy and Erin for a girl
||44|| Carrie or Kari – CARRIE- awww like carrie underwood
||45|| Todd or Tom - Todd
||46|| Lynn or Lee – I don’t like either to be honest
||47|| Sarah or Susie - Sarah
||48|| Jack or John - Jack
||49|| Lisa or Linda - Lisa

Music -
||51|| Punk or Rock – rock I guess?
||52|| Country or Bubble Gum Pop – country <3 Carrie
||53|| Rap or Techno – hehe rap….but richie loves techno
||54|| Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera – Christina can sing her fuckin ass off!
||55|| *N Sync or Backstreet Boys – BSB baby me and Krizisten all the way!
||56|| Korn or Staind – Staind
||57|| Limp Bizkit or Linkin Park – Linkin Park….yeah!
||58|| Guitar or Drums – guitar!!!! Duh!
||59|| Piano or Violin – piano!

TV -
||61|| Dawson's Creek or 7th Heaven – 7th heaven is the shit!
||62|| Angel or Buffy the Vampire Slayer- Angel cuz he’s hot
||63|| Law and Order or The Practice – Law and Order
||64|| Spy TV or Candid Camera – Candid Camera even tho it doesn’t come on anymore
||65|| Smallville or Charmed – Smallville b/c of Tom Welling, OF COURSE!!

Cinema -
||66|| Bruce Willis or Kevin Costner – Kevin Costner
||67|| Jennifer Love Hewitt or Neve Campbell - Jennifer Love Hewitt
||68|| Aladdin or Lion King – as much as I want to say Aladdin cuz richie is a sexy version, the lion king was one of my favies!
||69|| Snow White or Sleeping Beauty – snow white…I’ve never stayed awake long enuff to watch the other one
||70|| Comedy or Drama – comedy haha
||71|| Horror or Science Fiction – horror?
||72|| Scream or I Know What You Did Last Summer – scream…haven’t seen the other one
||73|| Not Another Teen Movie or Scary Movie – scary movie
||74|| Titanic or Pearl Harbor – pearl harbor! Josh hartnett AND ben affleck?! Oh fuck leo dicaprio!
||75|| The Mask or Ace Ventura – the mask hehe!

Computer/Video Games -
||76|| AOL or MSN - AOL
||77|| Dogpile or Google - google
||78|| Mac or PC – pc
||79|| PS2 or N64 – Love them both!
||80|| Mario Brothers or Zelda - mario brothers

School -
||81|| Pen or Pencil- pen
||82|| English or History- english
||83|| Math or Science – both!
||84|| Home Economics or Woodshop – home ec
||85|| Backpack or Messenger Bag – I have to use a back pack but messenger bags are cute!

Animals -
||86|| Cat or Dog - dog
||87|| Fish or Hamster - fish
||88|| Tiger or Lion – tigers are pretty
||89|| Butterfly or Lady Bug - butterfly
||90|| Seals or Otters – seals- but only the fuzzy white ones

Products -
||91|| Tide or Gain - tide
||92|| Herbal Essences or Suave – suave- it’s cheap and it smells good
||93|| Dove or Irish Spring - Dove
||94|| A-JAX or 409 – 409 bitches!

Other -
||96|| John Saul or Steven King – Steven King
||97|| Chocolate or Roses – Chocolate cuz I’m a fat ass but roses are prettier
||98|| Toyota or Ford – well I have an ‘overpriced toyota’ aka lexi the lexus
||99|| Paper or Plastic – paper- it’s more efficient!
||100|| Necklace or Bracelet – necklaces are pretty!

Current mood: tired

Friday, June 24, 2005

12:38PM - omg a month and a half or something like taht!!!

lmao it's been for-fucking-ever!!!! lol i couldn't possibly put everything in here!!!!

lol like a week and a half ago i went to the beach with nick, shaunie, michael, and this girl carol lynn or some shit like that!!! it was sooooo much damn fun!!! we went for the day and then that night we went to richie's (in harms way) concert and that was fun!!! lol i ended up with sun poisoning tho!!! lol....well looking at my last entry i can say...RICHIE DOESN"T HAVE A G/F ANYMORE!!! lol i dunno how long they are gonna stay broken up tho, which is upsetting, but i got my kiss WOOT!!! lmao!!! i was sooo damn happy when that happened!!!

so basically all i've been doing for the past few weeks is hanging with either michael, shaunie, or richie and hangin with ashlinn here and there!!! and let me say, it's been great!!! hehe i love having my own car...even tho someone threatened to fuckin bust my tail light, which they would be paying for!!! BITCH!! so, ashlinn and connor finally got together...it's about damn time she got what she wanted....now where the fuck is mine?!?!?

hehe a few nights ago i went to a party with shaunie and michael...that was fun....i was DD tho which sucked but oh well....then we went back to shaunie and michael's house and michael was DRUNK off his ass!! lmao it was really funny....i had shaun against my car and i was like "no you can't leave till you kiss me" lmao it was funny...then richie came out...i jumped on that shit....literally and shaun like ran inside hehe....and then me and richie sat outside and talked about how he couldn't kiss me....and then i got a kiss the next night anyways tee hee!!!!

yesterday was fun too, first i went to ashlinn's house! we went to the gas station, got a shit load of food and went back to her house and drained my car battery....ugh then you know who came outside...i hate the fact that i get chills everytime i see him, and not necessarily the bad kind either!!! ugh!! so then after that i went home for a little bit....later that night me, nick, shaun and michael went to arby's to eat then we went back to my house to pick up my brother and go bowling....after bowling i got my swimsuit, hopped in nick's car and went to pick up richie from work...he was happy to see me...even tho we were like 30 minutes late picking him up!!! OOPPPS!!! lol he was cool about it tho he gave me a huge hug! so then we went to nick's house where we jumped into the pool for like 10 damn minutes....lol i had to be in by 12...but dont worry i wasn't trying to act like i was hot shit and stuff *cough*...i let nick drive me home so i wasn't past curfew....but swimming was fun....richie violated me quite a few times...and i didn't mind....lol he tried to pants me the whole damn time....and then nick touched my boob when he was giving me a hug bye....lmao........last night was just the greatest...

i love just chillin with richie...i wish he and heather wouldn't get back together....but i'm sure it's gonna happen today cuz ugh she's at the beach and i'm not.....grrr.....i wanna be there so bad...but i can't deal with her anyways!!! dirty looks and quietness....no no! but oh well we'll prolly hang when i get off work i hope!!! maybe we'll go skinny dipping tonight hehe!

okay...i think this is enuff for this entry....it's really long and no one is gonna even read or comment....so oh well!! hehe i'm rollin like a doobie!! love ya!

ps- a fair fight has a damn concert at the grange tonight and i can't fucking go cuz i fuckin have to fuckin work....fuck that!!!
pss-my parents are psycho!!
psss- the new BSB song is the shit....everyone thinks so BBBITCH!!

Current mood: recumbent

Thursday, May 12, 2005

6:41PM - yeah

yeah i changed my journal up a bit! hope ya like it! i dunno how to get like pics on the page and shit and no one will do it for me so screw it...it's been the longest fucking times since i've updated...i've been busy.

I had to quit the soccer team to get more work hours so i can pay for my CAR!!! hehe my 94 green grand am!! i love having a car...cuz as much as my parents want to deny me of it, my car is freedom. i can go wherever the hell i want, even tho my parents try to tell me no!!! hehe i love it!!

my shaunie, my michael, and my richie!! God i love those three...i just got back from there house before me and ashlinn went up 202....richie...shaun...i just wanna fucking do them both....michael is a different story cuz he's gay....hehe....but richie and shaun just....they are so funny and incredibly good looking...lol i just can't get over it, but i guess i'm gona have to considering richie has a girlfriend....but richie thinks i'm hot...and we have a lot in common and just yeah....well i'm gonna stop now cuz i'm sure i'm making everyone sick!!! <3

prom tomorrow night! i'm so amazingly excited...i'm so glad ashlinn finally asked connor and there was good to come of that! i've been spending a lot more time with her lately which is awesome cuz we have such a fabolous time when we are together....hehe i love sitting out in my car and attempting to make mike jealous, even tho it prolly doesn't even work but oh well, i like to tell myself that it does....so yeah we saw jay the other day....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! lmao he's sooo fucking hot....he was NEVER that hot in grade school....EVER! but yeah i get to drive tomorrow night which i'm scared about especially after seeing that shit today....they want us to stay off the roads but then they have our prom on fucking 202 and our afterprom all the way back in pike creek!! hypocrites!!! well i'm getting bored of this entry now and i have to go meet this guy that wants to pay me $100 a day to watch his kids over the summer....sounds like fun....leave comments damnit!!

<3 </3 <3 </3 <3 </3 <3 </3 ps- no one has any idea what the theme for prom is pss-i'm pretty sure i blew a speaker in my car already...OOPS! ppss- shaunie kissed me on my cheek! tee hee!

Current mood: naughty shaunie and richie </3

Thursday, April 28, 2005

4:31PM - survey and then i'll update


First job: St. E’s after school care
First screen name: slimchic06….hehe
First self purchased CD: Good Charlotte by far
First funeral: My Uncle John’s
First piercing/tattoo: Got my ears pierced when I was like 6.
First credit card: HAHA!! Credit cards are the devil!
First enemy: Erin Mahon…wigger ass bitch!


Last big car ride: Mount St. Mary’s with Ash maybe?
Last Kiss: Steve (peck)
Last library book checked out: I was just in the library the other day…some crazy ppl in there…but yeah books on mars and antarctica for one of the little shits.
Last movie seen: damn I don’t even remember….the passion…maybe?
Last beverage drank: Rita’s Ice cream…if that’s a beverage?
Last food consumed: Pizza and breadsticks! Can’t beat it!
Last phone call: I actually just got off the phone with Ashlinn!
Last CD played: Listening to Fall out boy right now!
Last annoyance: Steve
Last soda drank: Orange Slice
Last ice cream eaten: Duh like 30 minutes ago.
Last time scolded: yeah my mom left me a voicemail in algebra today telling me that I didn’t plug in her phone
Last shirt worn: my school shirt, now, my hurley shirt
Last website visited: Livejournal duh

I AM: oddly satisfied right now!
I WANT: to find a limo for prom!
I HAVE: to start on my research paper!
I WISH: it was tomorrow so I could drive to Ashlinn’s house, just for the fuck of it
I FEAR: NOTHING! Sike, I fear…my older brother and so should everyone else
I HEAR: Fall Out Boy’s sexy sounds right now…
I SEARCH: for Marcus in the halls every damn day
I WONDER: if me and ashlinn will go to this theater thing
I LOVE: <3 my best friend (yeah, that’s u ash) <3
I ALWAYS: listen to music that I like
I AM NOT: a liar, a skank, or a lez…….like most of the gurls at st. e’s
I DANCE: with guys?
I SING: like kelly clarkson, uh, kinda
I CRY: a shit load of tears
I AM NOT ALWAYS: with it
I WIN: in a lot of sports, cuz I’m competitive and I ROCK!
I LOSE: to no one!
I CONFUSE: a lot of people, even myself.
I NEED: to go get my car from NTB so I can drive tomorrow…WOOT!
I WOULD: a mazda 6, 3, RX7, or RX8
i SHOULD: clean my room and start somewhat of a blueprint for it

YES or NO:

YOU KEEP A DIARY: yeah, a written one and one online.
YOU LIKE TO COOK: I like to bake.

DO YOU...?

HAVE A CRUSH: Yeah, a few names come to mind (Marcus, Eric, Richie, Shaunie, I could keep going but it would make me look like a skank.)
WANT TO GET MARRIED: What girl doesn’t?
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: I was for like…a week…I can’t do it!
BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Yes. Firm believer in that.
BELIEVE IN GOD: Of course!
BELIEVE THAT THERE IS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING: That’s my most strong belief ever!


COLOR: Orange
DAY: Friday
MONTH: September-February: I love the fall and winter!
SONG(S): For now? Girl Fight by Brooke Valentine, but like all in all anything by Mariah Carey or Kelly Clarkson
SEASON: Fall and winter- if I had to pick just one: the fall!
DRINK: Apple Juice or Gatorade
PART OF YOUR BODY: My ass, my legs, and my stomach
MOVIE: Dane Cooks DVD and pirates of the caribbean
PLACE TO KISS: no preference lmao.
RESTURANT: Cracker Barrel


CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: Depends on my mood, but most likely cuddle.
DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: EW to both of them!


CRIED? Yeah.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Nope. I need to stop spending money.
GOTTEN SICK? No, but I need to, cuz I can’t get rid of my queezy stomach.1
SAID 'i love you'?: Yes, to my Michael!
HEARD 'i love you'?: Yes, from my Michael!
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: Actually yeah, I wrote one to my coaches if that counts.
TALKED TO AN EX?: If mike shertock counts as an ex, then yeah.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yeah. About anal sex, with ashlinn. LMAO!
HUGGED SOMEONE? What the hell do you think?
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? Actually, not really.

Current mood: accomplished

Friday, April 8, 2005

9:32PM - yeah.....about that

lol i haven't updated in for-fucking-ever!!! all i can say is DRAMA CENTRAL!!! lol the people who know what that means then yeah that's good..if not then ur not cool enuff hah! no but i had an anxiety attack the other night...it was pretty damn scary....my mom made me have it....
not much has been going on lately...still don't have a prom date :(...i'm maybe thinking michael?? yes, he's gay, but he's sooo much fun and has such a great sense of humor...he's the coolest!!! the only thing is tho: have you ever tried to grind with a gay guy who doesn't know how to go about grinding??? lol...yeah about that....hrmm....everything is good with ashlinn and parker which is cool if it makes her happy..

last night was the funniest thing....first me and ashlinn watched the oc together which was theeeee best!! lol....trying to fit in drama and action packed stories in the commercials doesn't work lol....and then instead of having a cream filled donut i'm pretty sure it was a crack filled donut....i was asking ashlinn if the inside of my belly button looked like a rabbit's face!! lmao good times...but i knew that 'cream' tasted a little wierd....haha and then i called mike like 10 times just like cracking up asking him for jon white's number for laura (when in reality i wanted it for myself..but shhhh) lol and then once again he started flipping out on me so i flipped out on him back like i really dont care anymore....WHAT WAS I THINKING!?!??!? good Lord i'm retarded lol......so he threatened me again....i could take it to the cops but i'm not going to....unless of course he does!!!! and then mike schenck got to DRIVE HIS CAR OUT OF THE GARAGE! *gasp* lol.......he got to put it in the driveway!!! lol revving it up and playing the bass really loud...in a car he can't even drive...lol that's the coolest thing ever....*fart noise and thumbs down*

ugh....i have to get up at 615 tomorrow for SOCCER, and then i'm going back to sleep til whenver and then hopefully me and ashlinn can go to the mall...so yeah ashlinn if you read this hit me up!!! my hot friend josh from myspace can come maybe....or maybe dan from myspace if he calls me!

FALL OUT BOY!!! lol sunday night!!! i'm soooo excited you just have no idea!!!!! even though i'm not going with my best friend ashlinn cuz lindsey and lindsay dont like me!!!! oh well i'll just go with stan and take part in his little mosh pit thats never gonna happen lol....but the mosh pit is staying strong in his mind!!! lol....and let me tell everyone who thinks i'm a poser or w/e cuz i like FOB....yes i like fall out boy b/c of the talent show, but once i heard them i realized how hottttt they were!!! and now i like ALL their shit...more than ashlinn :p....so yeah i'm just so effing excited!!!
i think that's all for now....i love you all and leave comments bitches or else i'll cry!!! i'm rollin like a doobie!!!!

ps- i got a 2.63 on my report card....which i'm disappointed about...but it's better than a 2.08
pps- eric marsh is soooooooo hot! lol and he actually TALKS to me rather than be a dick like the rest of people that i have a crush on!!!
ppps- i got to play some bball with rocco while ashlinn was stuck on a cruise with laura!!! BURN!!!!! lol ilu ash!
pppps- ashlinn got me the almost perfect picture this week....of: pat, stan, and victor....if it had rocco instead of stephen ragard it'd be the ULTIMATE picture!!! lol but i appreciate you swiping it anyways my love!!! <3


Current mood: content

Tuesday, March 8, 2005

4:59PM - everything is soo.....lol messed up i guess you could say

i dunno so much drama the past however many days its been since i've updated.... friday....i had to work and i was really upset after i was done for some reason, so i called mike shertock and left him a voicemail but he never called me back and now i dont even remember what i was upset about....lol how weird is that?

now saturday...i worked during the day...which wasn't too bad...after work i made sure that ashlinn was okay and didn't need me and i went to mystique....i saw a SHITLOAD of ppl there including RYAN and BRANDON DOMBROWSKI....who was acting like a big dick by the way....but ryan just came up and started making conversation and shit and it was hot....and he is just so hot and perfect....even michael says so....but yeah okay i was leaving and i realized someone stole my phone...and i'm not gonna put every single detail up here cuz i'm pretty sure that i already told anybody that's reading this...if not then fuck you lol.....so yeah my phone got stolen and then my dad got pulled over and then by the time i got home, which was like 1230, i had to soak my toe....and my system was so awake by then that i didn't fall asleep until like 130....ugh and i had to get up to work at 7....

work on sunday wasn't too bad...then i came home and i'm pretty sure i did nothing....

yesterday i went to ash's house FINALLY after not being there for like ever....we had fun....we saw daniel....yeah...and she was dry humping the drive way lmao....we just had a ton of fun like we always do cuz we are young and crazy!!! at night parker and pete came over....and we played pictionary which was fun, except for the fact that it was more of a game of "couples pictionary" and me and pete failed miserably, i guess that should be telling me something....omg and i talked to zach last night...that would be my doctor's very gorgeous son...and he was cool with me talking to him....so i thought that was hot...still haven't pushed the issue of whether or not he has a g/f and whether i can have his number, and i'm very proud of myself for that...!!! and you should be too bitches....especially ashlinn cuz she knows how hard it is for me to control myself like that!!!

so today i went to school....it went by somewhat fast....i went straight from school to the nail salon and got my nails done....they are so cute...and i love the sound of acrylic nails on the keyboard...it has a nice sound to it...lol and when i got home i sorta ruined my healthy diet by eating some pizzza hut pizza....oops! right in front of big bro!!! even more oops....!!! well i cant wait til prom it's gonna be a blast...even tho i dont have a date yet...maybe mike, maybe zach....maybe RYAN??!?! God that would be a dream come true!! well gotta go finish getting ready for ring mass.....i'm rollin like a doobie! Love ya'll!!

ps- i got my aqua lenses today too!! yay!! pretty eyes!!!
pss- ryann is so God damn annoying....the way she thinks she knows everything about everyone and everything...dumb whore...
ppss- my brothers are driving me crazeee with their immaturity!!!

Current mood: optimistic

Tuesday, March 1, 2005

3:32PM - hey everyone

i havent updated in a long ass time, solely because of the fact that there's really nothing to update about...yeah...lol me and mike are friends again whoopie!!! lol....urgh guys just annoy the hell outta me.....it's not even worth it

so other than my love life which makes me want to cry....i feel like i dont even have my best friend anymore....yeah ashlinn that's you my love <3....i sorta explained to her today how it felt and it felt pretty good be getting at least some of a heavy load off my chest.....i just dont wanna piss u off or make u upset or make u feel guilty that's not the purpose....the purpose of me saying that shit is b/c i'm having ashlinn withdraw lol i just feel like we are drifting apart tho and i dont want that to happen.....

so other than that....nothing has really been up......i bought my prom dress, yes it's orange!!! it's just sooo gorgeous! ah i could cry but screw that lol....yeah i also had in grown toenails cut out again...OUCH! lol but i'm over that shit....hrm what else? ashlinn is sick :( .....everyone in school is gay minus a VERY FEW select people....and aside from having ashlinn withdraw i'm having AFF withdraw...they haven't had a concert in for fucking ever and that upsets me........but i dunno

michael, shauns gay brother, called me and wants me to go to mystique friday or saturday....i really really REALLY would appreciate it if my best friend would come for me.....it would mean a lot...yeah i know it's only mystique but fuck that u should come cuz i want you to be there with me! *sigh* w/e i'm in a bad mood.....comment bitches i feel so fucking alone....i'm rolling like a doobie now
</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3</3 ps- the best friend i am referring to above is ASHLINN pss- I"M GOING TO THE FOB CONCERT!!! WAHOO!!! it's gonna be so much fun i'm really excited bitches! psss- lindsay 2 is going to, but i dont care its FOB lol.......she just doesnt have to say anything to me.....or look at me.......OR BREATHE!! lmao jk jk pssss- lol parker u are prolly reading this, and yes you pass the b/f test!

Current mood: fucking frustrated

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

10:00AM - lalalallalalalal

lol i'm sitting here in study with erica and ashlinn!!! my lover (ps) is sitting right behind me!! woot! i wanna go to prom with him so bad...but eh what are you gonna do? i got my prom dress yesterday its so perfect for me!!!! ahh!!!! lol i better be going to glasgow's prom....with JOE!!!! *gag noise*!!! maybe if pete breaks up with his little 12 year old....hrm....or i could just go with joe anyways and do major plastic sabotage at the prom!!! muahahahaha!!! mike threatened me with a mother fuckin baseball bat!! lmao...pussy asss mofo bitch!!!!! then he told me he wasn't coming back to st. e's...and i believed him!! NOT!!! lmao he's looking for a pity party!! bbl.....

Wednesday, February 9, 2005

4:01PM - hey kids!!!! lol

sooo........lotta shit been goin on....found out that mike cheated on me, of course, that's after we broke up but nonetheless he's a dirtbag and everyone, including his friends told me!!!! thanks to everyone who tried to help me with that!!! it's cool tho cuz EVERYONE is on my side cuz they know he's a fucking asshole who did me wrong.....oh well just another one to add to the list!!

yea so i'm single now and loving it!!! so is stan!!! lol he's so funny, cuz he doesn't want anything to do with her...just lol the whole situation is hilarious....and she needed to hop off me the other night so i called stan and told him that....and he like cussed her out!!!! lmao!!! it was great...she was like way to be two and call him up....i was like way to be two and start shit online!!! lol she's so fucking dumb!!!! but yeah...i'm happy for stan!

movin on.....ashlinn and chad broke up which is actually pretty sad!!! but i'm happy with w/e decision she makes....i would rather her be just hooking up with ppl (parker) and have fun than her be in a relationship and not be as happy. Not saying she was unhappy, just saying maybe she wasn't AS happy...ya know?!?! but yeah that's enuff of that....

i got to see my daughters!!! sabbie and georgie!!! they are soooo adorable, and they are getting so big, lol it's so cute.....me and georgie went out and looked at the stars and she was sitting there like having an adult conversation with me like no joke....i wanted to cry!!!! i'd take a bullet for those little girls!!! they're so cute....

i think that's all for now...i can't think of anything else right now other than: MIKE SWEENEY NEEDS TO REALIZE THAT KaRmA Is A bItCh!!!! lol i dunno why i just typed like that....but yeah
i'm rollin like a doobie!!!
<3 AsHlInN
<3 LiNdSeY
<3 MiKeY pOo
<3 StAnLey

ps- WhAt If I wRoTe A wHoLe JoUrNaL eNtRy LiKe ThIs!!??!!?? LmAo!!
pss- i played soccer today with stan today after school and i got ALL MUDDY!

Current mood: i love the devil ears...

Friday, January 28, 2005

3:48PM - hello everyone

high school is such fucking pettty bull shit.....people who you think are cool with you and ur cool with ending up being the fucking backstabbers.....it just sucks when you think someone is on ur side and they end up fucking you over...things between me and mike i just dont know......it's all so fucked up....i need to chill with ash and go to the grange tonight.....that's it!!!! like fuck everyone fuck everything i just don't give a shit....somebody else was being a bitch today too but i'm not gonna put any mother fucking names in here.....well i'm gonna sit here and listen to dane cook and watch my brothers shoot each other....yeah.....dane cook is my hero!!!!!!
~I'm rolling like a doobie <3 peace bitches~
ps- me and pat had like A LOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT of moments today, especially after school we chilled a lot.
pss- rocco told me he hates when ryann gets all touchy feely with him lmao it was cute and funny.
ppss-dane cook is hot and he strips on the dvd that i have....yummie.

Current mood: fuck everyone...burn in helll!

Monday, January 10, 2005

4:55PM - okay so yeah

okay so yeah i feel so much better than the last time i updated....lol for one. i have a boyfriend....yeah mike sweeney!!! it's seriously one of those things you never see happening but out of no where it just happens and it's just like what!?!?!? you know???? lol but yeah he asked me out friday......it was cute..i'm prolly going to a dance with him saturday......but none of my friends are gonna be there. i hate going to dances with out my friends, i feel weird cuz i always dance in a circle wiht my friends....but i dunno if i'm going yet or not. cuz that would mean that i only have a half an hour to get ready. and i can't get off work early or switch hours cuz they are getting fed up with that shit

but yeah saturday night...i had so much effing fun!!! went with my baby and ashlinn, lindsey, connor, and ryann and saw AFF!!!!! lol they are so cute but andy the cake boy didn't get up and do his scream during the song a lovely funeral.......blah.....ashlinn waited the whole concert for that....lol but i found out that connor and lindsey actually liked them and that makes me happy cuz i love them!! yeah and then we told ash and all them we'd meet them at burger king....and they fucking set us up and pissed mike off.......they pissed me off too cuz then i had to deal with "you need to reconsider your friends cuz real friends dont do that blah blah" which i found out from someone today that it was your idea *cough* ashlinn *cough* lol

but yeah i also figured jeff was gonna ask me out too but oh well it's his own damn fault!!! lol he coulda asked me out a long ass time ago!!! so oh well i'm happy where i stand right now even tho my friends don't like my boyfriend......which i really don't get cuz he never did anything to them....well he did yell at ashlinn last year but big whoop lol.....he really hurt her feelings..not *rolls eyes*

i think i'm done with this journal entry......i'm rolling like a doobie.....love u bitches!!

ps- me and court just got into a fight cuz she's fucking dumb and i'm about to call stan and be like yo just break up with her....but i wont do that cuz i'm not that much of a bitch....
pss- lol me and nicole jones like had a friendly moment today lmao i dunno what that was about....she said that i left mike for her.....yeah okay
ppss- me and mike are saying i love you already...and his hoodie smells good.

Current mood: loved & about to flip on ppl!!

Monday, January 3, 2005

8:46PM - drama and depression

okay 3 words: I"M FED UP!! i'm just fucking fed up with everyhting....wtf?!?!? i'm so depressed.....like it's just not funny how unhappy i am....

this amanda and drew shit is just wtf....he doesn't even realize anymore that's it not even about him....it's between me and her about me and her......she fucked up......but i BLAME MYSELF for giving her his number....i saw it coming and i knew better....i knew waaaaaaaaaaay better....she's sitting there talking about "i care about drew and all you do is get in the way of our relationship" and then she tells me that she wants to make it work.....but three strikes (1- Phil, 2- Rory, 3- Drew) and your out....like she just doesn't get it...and if i say okay and make up it's like i'm fine with what she did......and i'm not!!!!! but i don't like drama so i might just say sorry......i said sorry to drew....cuz honestly he just got caught up in a wicked explosive cat fight....and it really had nothing to do with him......but i cant be cool with someone who does that to me.....i don't care what her intentions were at first......look at where they are now!!! wtf?!??!?!?! just fuck it.......

and then jeff......ugh.......he doesn't wanna relationship cuz he "doesn't have any fun" but yet he fucking says he wants to have sex with me....yeah i dunno about that one.....it just sucks.....

and just i'm fed up with not having a boyfriend......look at how happy ashlinn is......look at how happy you are girly!! well, minus his friends, but still....i deserve that just as much as you!!! not meaning that in a smart way, but you catch my drift....and then i look at laura and she has a boyfriend and she doesn't even want him....i just don't get it!!!! the guys i want, i cant have.....and there's a few on my list that i want so bad that i just i can't have.....and it just sucks....i'm fucking sick of waiting....nobody fucking understands.......holy fuck i'm so ugly and i have this habit of fucking scaring guys away....i fucking know i'm ugly, i know i'm a loser, i know that i'm too forward.....but other than the last thing....theres nothing i can do!!!! just fuck it NO ONE UNDERSTANDS!!!!!!

ps- i had a lot of fun playing badmitton in gym today...hey look i just smiled!!!
pss- jeff just called me and called me a loser and i just broke.....i started crying....but he called me while i was doing this and just yeah....i started crying....
ppss- jeff thinks i'm crying cuz of him.....conceited much?

Current mood: depressed, ugly, loserish, etc

Sunday, January 2, 2005

1:50AM - hrmmm

it's one in the morning and i'm not tired....i didn't do anything tonight and that makes me sad and pissed at the same time.....i'm sad that jeff didn't call me so we can hang....but i didn't really let it get to me....but i'm pissed cuz me and ashley planned on going to mystique.....5 minutes before we were leaving she said she had to go settle shit with bobby, said it would only take a few minutes....YEAH RIGHT!! i knew better than that.....i called her at like 930, 940, 950, and 10 and she ignored my calls...i know she ignored them and i left her mean ass voicemails to.....then she sent me a text telling me how her and bobby were fighting......iw as like i don't give a flying fuck about bobby u and i both know he's not worth it and you need to get your priorities straight.....but yeah......w/e i was pissed.....and tomorrow is the sunday before i go back to school.......i'm sorta undecided about this break.....i loved not having to go to school, but i still had to work and i dunno.....i just can't sit here and say that it was all that great....

new years eve was fun...me, ashlinn, lindsey, chad, laura, and connor.....apples to apples lol it was just a lot of fun.....i know i had fun.....and me and lindsey actually shared a moment....like we actually talked about shit.....i thought that was awesomely cool!!!

well i think that's all for now....happy new years bitches!

ps- jeff and me had an interesting but great conversation last night...right lindsey?
pss- i'm writing another story......weeee!!
ppss- i cleaned out my sock and underwear drawer today! lmao i dunno why i just said that!!

Current mood: cold

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

10:45PM - haha jeff and shaunie

lol jeff and shaun......what can i say?!?! there a bunch of clowns!!! they are so retarded....

ash picked me up from work today, but before she came jeff walked back to work in his little pimp outfit....and waited for me to get off.....so we walked out and wait for ashley....me and ash were sorta pissed cuz jeff invited us to his little family/friends party thing he was having and then was like well there is too many people at my house.....so we were all like eh okay w/e.......but he walked to zingo's leaving his own party....he said it was really boring.....but anyways ashley pulls up and me ash and jeff start hangin out....well pretty soon it's me, ash, shaun, jeff and their emo friend tim......well we are all just out there chillaxing being retarded in plain words lol....me and ash were dancing and shit like taht......we were having a good time...let timmy listen to my tbs ringtone bonus mosh part 2.....we started singing along to it..lol it was fun....i invited them to come....but they had to go to the party cuz jeff got in trouble and shaun was staying the night at jeff's house.....but yeah jeff like threw me into ashley's car window basically and then took my shoe......well i just sat there until he got closer to the car i hopped out and tried to grab him before he ran.....and i like ripped all the buttons off his brand new express shirt...OOPS!!! lol i was like yeah that's right dont' fuck with me!! it was really funny u had to be there.....so then i was saying bye....and me and shaun did a gangster hand shake and i went to go do it with tim and tim like squeezed me and pushed me up against the mailbox and was like OMG I LOVE YOU MAN!!! lol i seriously couldn't breathe....between him squeezing and me laughing.....i thought i was going to die......and then i went to do it with jeff and he was like i just give regular hugs.....so i gave him a hug and me and ashley tore outta there......this night was great......now i'm going to go watch some pornucopia bitches, hopefully its a good episode tonight lmao!!

~Love Always~

ps- PS is in the bahamas right now!!!!
pps- PS=Pat Sweeney
ppss- I miss a fair fight!! they haven't played since the tenth damnit!!!

Current mood: those guys are craaazeeeeeeeee

Thursday, December 23, 2004

11:28AM - Oh my Gay

yeah.....wut up??? i'm so bored....and i don't really have anything to update about......

i went to ashlinn's house last night.....it was fun we haven't really hung out in a while.....so it was tight....i got my presents....i knew about the betty boop thingie but i didn't think she was gonna get me the em cd.....i absolutely love it!!!!! thanks darling!! then i called daniel and wanted to go outside but then ashlinn was like you can't go out right now.....and i knew why......and i almost tried to go outside.....but i held myself from doing it...i'm so proud of myself!!! i had the willpower to not go out and see him......woo hoo!!! i mean of course that made me think about him......but then w/e........lol it's just over it's done....and i'm glad i'm not putting up with his shit anymore......but yeah thanks ash.....hope you like your presents....you were wearing them both last night so i think that's a good sign lol......

i'm so bored.....you have no idea...mi madre is gonna come home and take me to the dollar tree near movies ten.....so i'll have something to do and then i have to clean my room......ughhhhh!!!!

drew is an ass and amanda is a bitch for talking to him....i told her i wasn't joking around yesterday....i said it right in front of her b/f too....her hott ass boyfriend that has to be cheating on her......there's just no way.....but i was like stop calling drew and stop answering the phone when he calls i'm not kidding it's fucking fucked up.....and then i sat there and talked to jenna amanda's friend and she agreed with me that amanda shouldn't be doing it.....and this is the third time she has done it......and then she sits there on the phone and is like omg i talked to drew today he's so grumpy......she said that to me while i was in the hair salon and i was like wtf......i was like dont talk to drew anymore....if she calls me today and i find out that she was talking to drew i'm gonna flip my shit....it's just not right.....at least i know ashlinn wouldn't do that to me....ashlinn is my rock...or my hard place or something like that.....i love you girlie!!!!

well i think this entry is over.....i'm rollin like a doobie......{heart}

ps- pat looked DAMN GOOD in the show!!! even ash said so.....so BLAH!!!!
pss- i looked DAMN GOOD in the show!!1 everyone thought so!!!
ppss- i love my mommy!!!

Current mood: blah

Friday, December 17, 2004

10:26PM - uuuuuughhh.......

it's been a while since i've updated, but as usual i have nothing to update about!!!! i just got home from work....blah.....but i got to work with jeff (hot), shaun (hott), dave (even hotter), and brian (he's the fairest of them all!!!!) okay that part was queer, but you just have to see this guy, he should be in the mall where luke's (from the oc) pic is!!!! he's got perfect everything.......if you people would come in and visit me you would know what i'm talking about!!!! i got shauns number and he's gonna come watch me sing on tuesday!!! i can't believe it!!!! he was like just gimme a time and i'll be there....and then we got into some interesting discussions about hairy asses and balls.....particularly his!!! lmao i know it's gross isn't it?!?! but i love him!!!! okay, well i dont love him, but you get the point! and then matt (the bagger) was saying how his balls itched, so i told him to just itch them....it is really a funny sight to see, a guy resisting the urge to scratch his balls is so funny!

lmao i can't even finish this cuz julia is coming to pick me up in like 5 cuz were both bored and she wants to go shopping and who knows what else?! lol so i'll catch on the flip side bitches!

Current mood: wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

Thursday, December 9, 2004

7:25PM - oh Lordy

*sigh* i really don't know what to update about anymore.....i'm so friggin depressed and shit.....nobody knows what goes on inside my head cuz no one bothers to ask anymore like seriously......i feel like i'm losing my best friend....we never get to do shit together anymore and it's just aaaaahhhhhhhhhhh......and i just don't know wat to do i'm just sick of all this shit......high school, friends, guys.....it's all an emotional fucking roller coaster.......huh

i wanna see drew tomorrow night but i'm not missing the AFF concert......he'll deal.......AFF i just love them so.....i haven't seen them perform since october and i'm starting to go into withdraw!!!! haha i just can't wait.....this concert is gonna be my outlet i know it sounds gay but i dont care anymore......people can talk all the trash on AFF all they want but i love them!!!! they rock my fucking socks off!!!! pat is still hot as shit and tom was just talking to me for a piece of ass.......mike's one year with katie is also coming up......so is stan and court's 8 month.....lol that's my guy update.......other than the whole mike schenck deal right now which fucking pisses me off cuz now i gotta watch my back at work cuz people run their fucking mouth to much!!!!

God just writing this whole thing is just blah....it's so depressing how unwanted i am......God i hate myself with a passion

ps- pat might like dina. WTF?
pps- drew made me pee myself i was laughing so hard. he has the cutest laugh in the world.
ppss- A Fair Fight tomorrow night at the grange @6......be there or be square!!

Current mood: depressed

Saturday, December 4, 2004

8:16PM - lemme just tell you

lemme just tell you how gay my parents are......i went to work they coulnd't fucking give me a ride home......so i got one with rory and amanda.....so i went to amanda's house and fucking i asked if i could go to the mall and my dad was like NO NO NO NO NO NO NO......i don't wanna type NO anymore but he said it a milllion times......i'm so pissed right now i hate my dad like i seriously do.......he was like cuz i said no......fuck that he doesn't wanna let me go to the mall cuz he wants to deny the fact that i'm growing the fuck up and i'm not his little girl anymore.....i really really wanted to chill with rory amanda and ashley tonight and just have a good time........but my parents are just fucking blind....they seriously think that just cuz i'm with amanda i'm gonna go and get drunk and high and die like they are seriously soooo stupid......i've never given them reason not to trust me....well there was that one time but hten i came clean about it anyways......so fuck that......i can't wait til i can drive i'm just gonna run out the door on their ass......they deserve it.....i just had to vent.....but i hate my daddy!!!

Current mood: i hate my dad!!!!

Navigate: (Previous 20 entries)